Redemption

Today i fixed the h2o website. my girlfriend's cute. i'm back.

Hm

The other day i punched myself in the head. It still hurts.

It's been some time since we've talked.

Hello.

Now, let us divulge in my problems for a bit. I mean, of course you're not here with any other reason than to find out what my current issues are. So let's begin. As of late, I am single, I cannot sleep at night, and thus have been missing class. I am incredibly unmotivated and things aren't looking well. But they will turn up, as always. It just may take a good bit longer than usual.

It's been quite some time.

hello again.

I have a job, I make a decent amount of cash, I'm making real music, and my relationships are healthy. Thanks for asking! :-)


Adam

Lately

Lately, every time i speak. i listen to myself, and hate every word that leaves my mouth. I hate my personality, and am nothing but a carbon copy of every other mother fucker in this world. I am replaceable.

Today

I've decided to go home for a while. I like living on campus and all, it's just that I've noticed that everything I've been wanting lately is at my dad's house... a few miles away. Here, I pretty much have no choice but to eat unhealthily, and I can't sleep very well because the dorm's too hot to sleep in and the beds aren't very comfortable, despite my addition of a down feather overlay. My lack of sleep is having a negative impact on my grades, big time. I'm glad this decision has finally occurred to me.

Welcome

to 3am.

I am awake. I wish I had a large amount of Sculpey clay, and a house to destroy and fuck up and beautify as my own. Maybe I'll ask my family for like, Home Depot gift cards or something for Christmas, and I can just go buy a buncha stuff and fuck around with it. I need a creative outlet that yields physical results, seeing as my musical abilities seem to be lesser as of late. I'd like to cook. I'd like to sculpt. I'd like to build fountains. I'd love to sew. But, I'm tragicly short on cash and time.



sigh.